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2009-06-21T22:39:00.002+08:00

Went to watch The Ghost of Girlfriends Past with Jasmine on Friday. Talk about some stuff that's happening/happened in Vishay. Really miss the times there with them..those talk cock session during lunch and etc. Cant turn back time..will put it as memories.

Past photos..

2009-06-17T14:46:00.001+08:00

Have been neglecting my lovely blog ever since I started working again. Now I'm back to blog. Shall update about work first. Seriously I'm not very happy working there as compared to my previous company. The very first day of work i already got the urge to quit but still i endure with it...not allowed to cross-leg, read books during lunch break, kanna say crazy and blah blah blah..now i can say i'm used to all this stupid stuff.

Seeing my friends have their future planned, i started to panic. Seriously I'm the kind of person that don't have any goals in my life. I browse thru the degree courses and none interest me. But after talking to my friend, i made my decision. I will take up driving this year and then Korean language next year. For now its this way but who knows i might change my mind later.

I'm joining back my other friends again. Last time i'm really silly to put someone as my priority and neglected others. I'm really sorry my dears! Now whoever asked me out, i will agree if possible so that the bond will be maintained. I won't put anyone as my priority anymore. And also I know who are the ones that really cares for me and worth for me to cherish.

Went singing session with shumei last sat. After K, we went Wong Kok to slack. We talk about lots of stuff. I also brought up stuff that i usually won't talk about unless people ask me. But still its still good to say it out though my heart really hurts whenever i talked bout it. I guess deep down i haven't really forgive him. After 3..4 years its still a open wound..i duno when will it recover.

2009-02-23T22:20:00.004+08:00

I was told that i got the job at The Elizabeth/Quincy Hotel by my uncle. Hope is not fake news! Cos i'm really hoping to be able to work there though i'll need to wear formal. I dont mind though i dont really like it. Ina, dont forget our deal! If i got the job u'll give me a treat. And i'll treat you when i get my first pay. Haha

Things i want to buy:
*Samsung pixon
*External hard disk
*Acessories from Asmama/Yesasia:

*ToHoShinKi new japanese album- The Secret Code
*DongBangShinKi 3rd Asia Tour MIROTIC Concert Goods
*DongBangShinKi 3rd Asia Tour MIROTIC DVD
*Formal clothes (If i get the job)
*Heels

2009-02-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Quality Time

My Detailed Results:
Quality Time:	11
Physical Touch:	6
Words of Affirmation:	5
Receiving Gifts:	4
Acts of Service:	4

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

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2009-02-10T01:31:00.000+08:00

Duno what to blog so shall post some past due pics...

Slacking @ Mac cafe with janet and xueying

Lunch with ina at a korean restaurant

Tea-break at canele

Lunch at Tonkichi and desserts at TCC

2009-02-02T22:12:00.003+08:00

Been wanting to change phone and finally i eyed on one now. But is samsung!! Should i try Samsung phone again??? I'm really worried that it will turn out like my previous samsung phones..bad reception. And is kinda ex also. How how how?

The free iPersonic Personality Test

2009-01-08T14:03:00.001+08:00

2008-12-31T14:39:00.002+08:00

Time passing so fast. Its already the last day of 2008. Many things happened and changed this year. Graduated from poly, took my first step into society,got to know better and got closer with some of my friends..etc
I've grown up quite alot thru all this that happened i guess..learnt to accept things that cant be changed. Character wise i guess i've changed alot too. Got "naughtier"?Talks more? One thing didnt change much i think will be my look? Just looking older only. haha

Wishes for 2009..
*Get a new full time job
*Slim down more =P
*Go DBSK concert
*Happier
*Everything gets better
*Become prettier and younger. hahaha (jk-ing)
*And maybe meet that someone

2008-12-23T16:44:00.002+08:00

Meet jasmine for short lunch and she passed me my X'mas present. Thanx ger. =D I like it..so sweet of u..now i have KJJ with me all day.heehee Got home and start baking cake on my own for the very first time. Its a totally failure though. My orange sponge cake turn out to be orange rock cake. =P And worse it kanna cockroach attack when i was out. Arghh!!! Cockroach like orange????

2008-12-20T23:27:00.002+08:00

Went town with jasmine. Go round shopping for X'mas gift for her friends before our movie. Watched Twilight. I love it..is very my type of show!! Edward is soooo cute at times!! Ina, i know u'll love jacob rather than edward. hahaha But was kinda disappointed cos i expected more actions and seeing sharp fangs. Hope to see the second part soon!!

2008-12-10T21:37:00.001+08:00

Past due pics(Ina's 21st)

Photo hunt craze

Can things done be undone? Can we turn back time? Go back to what we use to be? I wish its possible. I wish everything can be reverse to what its used to be.

2008-12-07T23:03:00.001+08:00

Meet adrian and went vivo to slack. On the way there, we decided to ask if there's anybody who wanna join the both of us. Managed to psycho shumei to come and find us at vivo in the end. Had lunch cum dinner at marche. Had a good chat there. Then we went to shop for awhile after shumei came and decided to watch movie. Never thought i will watch my first R21 show with them. The show is quite funny..just that i'm not really use to watch this kinda show. Took a cable car ride as shumei wanted to try it out and we have nothing to do before the show starts. Oh, saw one really handsome ang moh when we were queuing for cab. He has very nice features and quite tall too. *drools* wahahhahaha

Emo-ing

2008-12-06T14:41:00.005+08:00

Friday:
Meet Ina for Mac breakfast with a motive behind it .Gave her a surprise before we went to have our breakfast. Waited for her at the void deck with her fav bakerzin new york cheesecake. I loiter for around 30mins i guess till i finally receive her sms saying she's coming out already. I hided behind the wall then slowly walk behind her when she came out of the lift and tap hard on her shoulders. Specially went town on thursday to get her this piece of cake and went home.Sweet right?! heehee She even made me sing birthday song for her in public..so pai seh lor. Anyway I hope i suprised you and its a memorable one for you!!!

Met up with ina, hui shi, xueying and janet for dinner at MOS. Went KTV till 5.30am. Super shag cos is like i'm holding a concert. I sang the most i guess. Though is tiring but I had lotsa of fun. I guess all enjoyed it too!?

2008-11-23T13:06:00.001+08:00

Finally yesterday was my last day in Vishay. Enjoying first day of my long break now. Sleeping..slacking at home. My lunch khakis (dap, jo, jas,ginny and wendy), cousin, sup (lina), jas lim,yvonne,ricky and judy gave me a surprise last friday. Though it wasn't something really really big but still its really a memorable one to me. I'm really touched cos i'm just a temp, so i never thought they will do all this for me. The whole thing was funny. I felt like crying but never cos too many people. But i know my heart is really uncomfortable. Will upload the video if possible. Another shocking thing is they got me a itouch..16gb somemore. My cousin is their "accomplice" too. My sup got to know i wanna get a itouch from her. So Ah Jie i owe you one!!

2008-11-14T18:48:00.003+08:00

10 more days and I'll be FREEEEEEEE!!! I'm very happy bout it but at the same time worried. Cos current situation giving me an impression of job is difficult to find now. Either the pay is low or they will hired people thats really good. Luckily the korea trip is cancelled and i can use the savings to survive thru this period. Well..I shall enjoy myself first since its a long waited break.

On tuesday, me and beng was chatting on msn. We were crapping, talking bout what's life and our secondary,ite/poly times. We came to a conclusion that life is just like a cycle. Repeating the same old things everyday--> BORING! We really missed our secondary days and wish to turn back time to those days when we learn and enjoy. Those days were really enjoyable and memorable. And its where i got all my true buddz. We have already known each other for nearly 9years..some even more than that. I really cherish this friendships.

Some past due pics~~

My precious off to incineration centre

2008-11-01T01:34:00.001+08:00

What's happening to me?? Seems to be falling sick so often this 3months. Is always throat infection, fever, flu and take longer than usual for me to recover. Down with flu on wednesday..till today still havent fully recover. My nose is still badly block.
On leave for 2 days..tons of work waiting for me to complete on monday. Kill me pls! 3more weeks to struggle. Hope everything will go smoothly for the remaining weeks.

2008-10-26T21:52:00.003+08:00

Been neglecting my blog for quite awhile.Shall update somethings now. Finally left one month.I'm very happy working with my dear colleagues but seriously i'm kinda sick with this job already especially the sorting and matching those stupid invoices against the report. Its really manual and wasting of time. Now i just want this last month to pass fast, get out of there and have a good rest.

Enough of my job..shall talk bout something else. Been going K quite often this year though my singing sucks. Enjoy the fun with my budz there. Lots of laughter,lame jokes and bickering with one another. Other than K, will be shopping, movies or suppers. So in short my life is just so simple.

2008-08-04T21:36:00.002+08:00

For the whole day my eyes was so uncomfortable yet i still have to OT. When i OT my whole eyes turn red so decided to leave at 7.30. Didnt even bother to wait for another half an hour so that i can on-call cab. Walk out myself for the first time..as the sky was still not that dark yet and was on the phone while walking out so it wasnt that scary.
Didnt realise that i put my handphone in my bag without keylocking it. On my way out i took out my phone and check my sent sms and saw that i sent alot of blank sms to him and called him without realising it. I dont know how it happen but i think it's because the last person i was sms-ing with when i was OT-ing was him. I was laughing and in my mind thinking that he will sure think that i'm crazy. Guess what!! The next moment he called to ask whether i'm crazy or what..sent so many blank sms and called but didnt talk. So just nice there's something to distract me while walking out alone.

2008-07-27T22:48:00.004+08:00

Finally i'm left with one last part to do tomorrow. Hope to be the last thing i have to do then i can start help out with my colleague's stuff. Joined my sup and colleagues for dinner on friday. Dont intend to go due to some reasons but after my colleague's persuasion i agreed to join.

Had lunch with wei qin and beng on friday. Surprised that wei qin remember what i told him before about having long lunch on every first and last friday of the month. Joined my colleagues to hk cafe while waiting for him to come. The food there seems nice..shall try one day.My colleague thought he was my boyfriend when he came to find me at hk cafe. On the way back to work, i was told that i had a lao ma, da ma, er ma, xiao ma, da jie and er jie out of a sudden. All of them think that he's not bad and "approved" our relationship. hahaha I told her that we are immpossible. lol

2008-07-24T21:49:00.003+08:00

Been OT-ing consecutively for the past 2 days. Come up with an excuse to escape from OT-ing today. Been doing the same thing assigned by my supervisor for both days..leaving other colleagues stuff pending as she want me to put her stuff in the first place and cant dont other people's stuff. Causing me to be sorry for not able to help them. Though the task i'm doing seems easy.Just consolidating datas but there're too many parts and the date range is too wide, from march till now. Everyday after work my eyes will be red but for this two days its not just red, i can feel the pain when i rub lightly. I guess i overwork my eyes. Yet i still cant finish it. Still have to continue tomorrow.
I was super pissed when my supervisor called me over at 4plus on wednesday to ask me help her do this. She wanted me to complete it on that day. I replied her i will try my best. Its so obvious that i cant possibly finish it within one and a half hours before 6. So i stayed to do. Till around 7plus, she called and ask about the progress. I told her its immpossible to complete it. At that point of time i'm still kinda pissed and what she replied me make me even more pissed. She said, "since u cant finish, you help me retrieve WD report". WTH You already know i cant finish still asked me do other things!?!?! I really dont know what she's thinking. My friend was shocked when she saw my black face. I hardly show black face outside so you can imagine how pissed i am. Did i mention she thought i call my cousin?! Out of a sudden she called me and asked i call my cousin is it? Asked her why, she just say she thought i call my cousin. Thought i complain to my cousin!!?
Yesterday something similar happen again. She called me to go over again when I was trying to complete everything fast. Guess what!? She ask me go over just to photocopy things for her!! Here i'm rushing the things for you, yet you still want me to do other things. Okie fine..i did it for her. Till around 3 i manage to complete for suzhou's file so called to ask whether there's other stuff as on wed she already said there's another file after i complete this. She asked me to do other stuff first..after her meeting she'll tell me what to do!! Hello..trying to waste my time!?!Obviously i will need to stay back and do again.
Work doesnt seems to go smoothly for me. Today as usual i cont' doing my stuff. This temp girl come up new pattern again. The invoices are piling up. From last week till now she haven sort finish and mail all out which have to be done every week. Till today its already 2 big stack already then come and find me ask me to sort together with her. I cant possibly help since my sup already said i cant do other stuff. And most importantly i cant waste the effort of my colleague who have been helping me to put the invoices on her table for this 2-3 weeks to lighten my workload as supposingly the temp also have help out but she never. Is not like i never sort 2 big stacks alone before. I even have to sort and match the invoices for one particular company when she doesnt even need to do it as only i know how to. When i needed her help, she didnt help. She expect me to help now!?! At first i will feel that i'm selfish and gulity for not helping her, but today i wont already. Cos sorting and mailing only need her 1-2hours yet she can just leave the invoices to pile and dont wanna find time to sort it during office hours and maybe stay back awhile to do her other stuff.

I can only find true peace when i chat with him over the phone. Peace and relax for awhile..maybe just 20 minutes or so. Its better than nothing. At least it helps to change my bad mood.

2008-07-16T21:57:00.003+08:00

Meet him for dinner at BK on monday. Went his house awhile for him to change. We didnt plan to go in as we thought his family were at home. First time step into his house. I think is quite clean and simple. Also realised that both our house have the same colour theme, blue..just different tone of blue.
Its been around two days since i last talked to him. Did not receive his call nor msn. Its really becoming a habit to hear his voice or see his message everyday. Felt that something is missing.Dont know what happen to him also but i also didnt bother to talk to him. Too use to him talking to me first everytime. Just cant make myself to start convo with him first..dont know what to talk about.

2008-07-04T22:24:00.006+08:00

Its been a busy week for me. Tons of work assigned to me..eyes nearly popped out when doing spreadsheet with hundreds and thousands of lines. Went bugis with Ina on thur. Had dinner at soup spoon. Had boston clam chowder and mushroom pesto sandwich. Cant finish my sandwich again..but i dont wanna waste it so ate all the fillings and left a small piece of the bread. Shop for awhile after dinner. Wanted to get a new handphone pouch but didnt get any. *sad*

Last min decided not to join for colleagues for lunch and meet weiqin for lunch today. Went to shop awhile after lunch. Saw some of my colleagues when we are heading to Watson. I knew something sure is going in their mind when they saw us. And i was correct. The moment i board the bus, my colleague, yvonne ask me "How was your lunch?Nice?". Then the next minute,another colleague,Joanne also ask me the same question. I was like..what's so special bout my lunch today!??! I realise outsiders always see the two of us as one pair. Is it b'cos of our pattern when we're together??! Or due to our closeness?!

As usual we chat everyday...long..short convo. The last time the long convo we had was around 40mins. On thur we broke record again.We talked for nearly 1hour10mins at one go.Time passes so fast..i didnt notice that we've chatted for so long till i check my call duration after we ended our call. Told my friend about it and she said the both of us ma chiam like lover birds. lol How long this gonna cont'?

2008-06-29T22:14:00.002+08:00

Have been neglecting my blog recently due to my work, LAZINESS and "weekdays computer phobia". I wont touch my com when i reach home after work unless necessary as i've enough of it during work. Sitting in front of the com for the whole day causes me to have blood shot eyes after work.

Meet up with Ina last weekend at downtown for lunch. Headed to tamp to get some girl's stuff. Slack at starbucks for nearly 2 hours and talk about stuff that we dont usually chat about. Told her lots of stuff that i dont just share with anyone. I just felt comfortable telling her. I love this heart-to-heart talk with her. She make me realise something that i never realised. So its good to have one once in awhile.

Have been going K-session quite often lately with my singing khakis,weiqin and beng. But yesterday was JT instead of beng cos he didnt book out. Hardly had chance to sing with JT so yesterday he was the performer of the day. He sing till his voice turn hoarse. We had alot of fun esp me and weiqin due to JT's performance. We laugh non-stop when he imitate Jam Hsiao. Will upload the videos when i finish uploading them..

I realised that i've been meeting him quite often lately. Unlike last time maybe only meet up once a month or so i guess. And for the past 4-5 months till now we had been either chatting over the phone, online or both almost everyday. Getting a phone call from him either in the morning or afternoon is like becoming a habit. We can chat for like an hour on the phone..if also add up those like 5,10mins..15mins..sometimes one day got 2hours i guess?! I also notice my mood for the whole day somehow got affected if he didnt call. Just like last thursday somehow i'm abit sian for the whole day till the moment his name appear on my hp at around 11pm. Even though it was just a very short call asking me to watch something, my mood just changed. Also i'll check my phone very often..worrying that i missed his call when i was away from my desk. I will call back immediately when i know i missed his call. I just dont like this part of me!!! Oh ya i've also become his human alarm clock to wake him up whenever we're going out. There's once i purposely dont wake him up and true enough he OVERSLEPT. Somehow I was put on blame for this. I think he took for granted that is a must for me to wake him up. Why am i doing all these??!? What's happening to me??!?

2008-05-24T22:31:00.004+08:00

I'm officially graduated yesterday. The grad ceremony was so so only. Alot of my frenz didnt turn up so only took a few pictures, chit chat awhile and left to meet weiqin. Will upload the pics when i receive the pics from yunyen.

Had a wonderful day today. Intend to go singing with weiqin and beng but end up joining my ah jie and yunyen to sing due to some REASONS. First time singing with them..feel abit shy at first but slowly its ok after awhile. Sing quite a few songs but some first time singing than abit weird. Ina, remember what we agreed earlier for next month!! Its coming soon!!

2008-05-19T22:23:00.003+08:00

Another long day one ytd. Went fortune telling then andrew's bday chalet. Stay there till ard 4am. I was the only girl staying till so late so i see Weiqin and JT play PSP monster hunter cos i have nothing to do there. Oh ya saw Mr gau there too. At first we saw him when weiqin finding space to park his car. Then the funny thing is we saw him again when we reach andrew's chalet. His chalet was juz beside andrew's. haha I think we too long never contact already so we got not much things to about. All was so quiet. Enjoyed myself there..is like a secondary schoolmate gathering.

Regarding the fortune telling, i find him quite accurate esp about my character. He spot alot of it and some i dont even know it myself. Well for my love life, i find it abit unbelieveable. Dont know whether to believe not. When i tell my a few of my frenz about it, all mention him. hahaha Also dont know why all think is him. And on the same day Jt oso suddenly tell me that if i'm shorter, me and him sure will be together. lol
Oh ya to those who know me i've change the way of spelling my name elaine but same way of pronoucing. Added another A to it so it will be Elaaine. Pls remember!!

2008-05-18T15:58:00.002+08:00

Had a long day out ytd. Went town with Ina to get Andrew's present. Walk from Doby Gauht to orchard..and finally we manage to get him 2 graphic tees that suits him from Heeren Fleshimp. Then we went to kino's Coffee club to rot till ard 6 and back home for me, downtown for Ina.
Reach home bath and out i go again to my dad's place. Stay till 9 plus and back home for less than a hour..out i go again. Go supper with weiqin beng adrian and JY. Went for midnight movie after that. Watched Accuracy of death. Don't really understand the show till adrian explain to me.

Acting cute~

Teary look

2008-04-23T21:15:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since i update. Been busy with work. Time flies..have already started to work for like nearly 2 months. Working life is really boring . Its already become a routine..eat, sleep, work..eat sleep and work. Lifeless~! Except for weekends when i may meet up with my frenz to enjoy.
Today my boss,kelvin, asked me to see him. I was afraid that i didnt something wrong or wad when i heard from Alice that he's finding me. Luckily it was just about the extension of contract. I dont think is something big but seems like its creating some problem even have to get the boss to talk to us. I'm alright if they want me to extend but just get someone to help me with the sorting of invoices cos i have to OT in order to find time to sort it. Another temp who's leaving on 7th may is still considering whether to extend not. I duno who she heard from that if she extend she will be bombard with the invoices. Excuse me..now is me who's being bombarded with work. What she's doing now is so much lesser than mine anyway. Its true that she might need to take over the sorting of invoices but even so her workload is still lesser than mine. Haizz long story shall nt continue..lazy to type.

Happy Birthday Mummy!! Is surpose to be me treating my mum, bro and godma for dinner but in the end my godma still pay for the dinner. Its always like that. I must really treat her when its her Bday.

Me and Colleague

Late bday present from bro

2008-03-06T00:36:00.008+08:00

3/5/08 12:35am
Omg la!! Weiqin and adrian came to my void deck and surprised me just now. Received a call from adrian asking me to go down meet him as he got something to tell me. And he'll only wait for 5mins. So i rushed down without changing. Saw him sitted at the bench with an apple strudel lighted waiting for me. I was shocked la. Somemore weiqin suddenly pop out..making me even more shock. I never thought that they will do this. I think they purposely waited at the void deck till midnight lor.Cos at 11++ weiqin msn me saying that he going to watch tv..anything sms him. At that point of time i didnt think much..i just find it weird cos he dont usually watch tv at that timing so i went to check out there's what show. And there wasnt any show that he like but still i never suspect anything.They also got me a adidas jacket as present. Weiqin chose it..his taste quite good..i like it. Also I just know from weiqin that he and jy walk round the whole orchard just to get me this jacket. Poor thing la! Its weiqin's idea to get me a jacket if i'm not wrong cos only he knows that i need one now. Adrian apologise that they couldnt give me a big party but to me this is already a really memorable one.
Ps: Weiqin and adrian,thanks for this surprise. And to those who fork in for the present thanks alot (Weiqin, Adrian, JT, Beng and Cheewee).

My birthday cake

Present from weiqin,adrian,beng,JT and CW

3/6/08
Today's My Big Day!! 21st Birthday!! Heehee Had lunch at Jack's Place with my mum, "godma" auntie sharon and uncle kenny. Planned to treat them but in the end i still get treated by uncle kenny. Somemore got an ang pao from auntie sharon. She say when its my mum and her birthday, she will treat me again!! It should be me treating already since i'm working now. Its been months since auntie last saw me..she says that she wouldnt have recognise me if i didnt have the mole. Did my face change?? Had a long chat there after lunch. She really envy my mum for having a daugther and lots of other factor. Ah!! Should have ask the staff to help us to picture~! Sianzz

Went home to rest awhile and meet weiqin, ina and JY. Had dinner with ina at fish & co. I knew there's birthday complimentary there but i didnt know ina will really ask for it. The staff make me stand on the chair and whole a firework stick. Its so so so so pai seh. The whole restaurant knows that i'm the birthday girl and some sing along with the staffs. Its like i'm so tall and standing on the chair makes me like a GIANT!!! Really a MEMORABLE 21st!!

Then meet up with weiqin and JY to watch 10000 BC. Its a pity the the sabre tooth only came out to save and roar only. I was hoping more like helping the hunters to battle the evil warload. But overall the show was quite nice.

Our BIG meal

Presents from ina

Jae's alike ring

Jae's sexy pic with signature and ring

2008-03-05T23:34:00.002+08:00

Started working for one week plus already. Getting used to it but still think that studying is still the best. Not so lifeless. Colleagues there are quite nice to me. Staring the com for whole day is really very tiring.
Meet up with xuan yf and bg ytd. They treated me for dinner at golden mount hawker. We had choco fondue, chay keow tiao and western food. Thx gers. =D

My work area..

My presents

2008-03-01T23:13:00.003+08:00

Celebrated my 21st Birthday with my Buddies. Early morning weiqin and me went to find auntie joanne. He trimed his hair while i washed. Auntie joanne asked where we going as both of us were dressed up. Auntie nancy wanted to sing me a birthday song when i say i going to celebrate my bday but i say no need cos i very pai seh with alot of outsiders around. =P And one more thing auntie joanne keep asking if he's my boyfriend. Do we look like couple!?!?! hahahaha
After that we went to meet beng and adrian to sing K. Had alot of fun with them. They suddenly turn very secretive when we were heading back to tamp for dinner with the rest. So i began to suspect they were up to somethings. I asked adrian where we heading and he say duno and just walk and walk. We ended up in Adidas. I walk around while they were there choosing something. I walked towards them and asked what they doing cos they were choosing very long. I was so pai seh when adrian say they buying a jacket for me and asked me to choose one. I say that i don wanna choose and walked away. End up they didnt get anything and planning something again.
Dinner at seoul garden was fun though alot didnt turn up. Never take any picture cos all was very into eating. haha

2008-02-20T22:27:00.004+08:00

Finally today is the end of my school life. Went ECP cycle right after FSM test. Cycle for 3hours cos the uncle gave us 2 hours free when usually its only 1hour free. My legs are aching now! Have steamboat at 412 for dinner. Not bad but they dont have my favourite golden mushroom!!
Gonna be 21 soon...sianzzz Not going to organise chalet or what..just having a simple dinner with my budzz.
Got a job already. Working in the same company with my cousin. Thanks to her i got myself a job so fast.

Wishlist for 2008:
-Get to see Dongbang or Jae!!!!
-New wallet
-New ring for my last finger
-Another adidas candy watch (white with gold/silver border)
-New shoes
-Skinny pants
-Clothes
-My earholes to heal faster!! Its nearly 6months le :(
-Go korea & japan

Banging the pole

"Hungry Ghost"

2008-02-17T22:01:00.001+08:00

2008-02-16T21:13:00.003+08:00

Pictures~~~~~~

Into puzzle bubble..

"Tiko" face

Valentine Day

After MP presentation...

Choco chip cookies from Ina

2008-02-15T00:18:00.002+08:00

Have been participating in this competition with them for 3 years..but this year there's an addition of 2 new members, jinloong and sengguan. We gt 2nd..now with this year's medal, we've got all the medals 1st 2nd and 3rd. First year we are still newbie, second year we're pro and third year we are too old to compete already. Though we lose our champion position but we still rocks!!

My Medals!

My teammates...

Teammates cum supporter

2008-02-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

Didnt sleep well last night..Sleep like never sleep. Duno wad happened. Went town to shop with weiqin and beng again. Its really very packed. Glad that both of them manage to get some stuff. Had late lunch at Ramen Ten.Ordered this super spicy ramen..its super spicy la. Its much much worse than the "spicy cutlet rice" i ate at hongkong cafe ytd. The train was also packed with ppl when we go home..i got nothing to hold on to keep my balance. Nearly lose my balance..Weiqin saw it so he told me that i can hold on to them if i want. So sweet la. hahaha But i never la cos i manage to balance myself.
CNY is so near. Already have plans on CNY eve and oso the first day of CNY. Eve go sing..1st day go watch movie. Yeah!!!!

2008-02-01T00:08:00.000+08:00

Finally today's the last FSM lab. I'm in charge for cleaning up and ms choo ask mi to cleam everything cos CNY coming...luckily my frenz stay back help mi and very fast we finished it. Went home and nap for ard 5 hours. Went hongkong cafe to have my late dinner with weiqin and beng. While we were deciding to go for a movie or wad..adrian called to ask wanna go catch prawns not. We went there but in the end never catch cos after watching other ppl catching for like 15mins they still didnt catch anth so we went somewhere else. After some thts, we decided to go Roti Prata House to slack. Slack till 2am++ thn go home. Love to have this kinda meeting...eat and slack. =D

2008-01-31T23:09:00.000+08:00

My Mock-up product

Finally reports for PDM, FSM and csas interview are cleared. Now i'm left with MP report. Plz finish faster!!

2008-01-26T19:30:00.000+08:00

Went town with weiqin, jiayi and beng to shop for their CNY clothes. Its really crowded with people.JY drive so we no need to squeeze in MRT or bus. Had lunch cum dinner at Fish & Co. Shall go rest now. Might be going out with them later again for supper and movie.

2008-01-25T19:03:00.000+08:00

Today's a bad day for me.Burned my thumb and index finger of my left hand during FSM lab. Repeat history again. I hold the metal bowl thats put near the fire for a long time. Can you imagine how hot it will be!!! And this time there's no ice in FPP!! Luckily Irene was there and gave me a burn aid.
And also the whole nail of my third toe on my right leg broke off. So now my toe is botak!! The forth toe is oso coming out already..its half-way broken. What's happening to my toes!?!?!?

Went shopping with adrian and weiqin at city hall. Weiqin is changing his style of dressing. He bought a long-sleeve shirt which i think is nice..actually partly is i choose one. hahaha Went home at 6++ as adrian need to meet his gf. Planned to go supper but in the end cancelled. Weiqin was worried that i will get gastric cos he knew that i didnt had my dinner as i was waiting for them. He wanted to specifically drive and bring me out to eat but i rejected cos he already eaten. Sweet right!?!? I told my mum about it and she say this type of guy good..can be a good boyfriend.BUT he's too short for me and we got no chemistry!! hahahaha

2008-01-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

Today's match was much tougher than the previous years. The guys from the teams we were playing with was very rough. In one of the game, i fall down from the chair because of the defender.I totally lose my balance..i also don't know what really happened..just know that he knock onto me so hard that i "jump down" from the chair. Luckily i manage to stand on my feet. I think he did it on purpose cos he did it like twice. And if i heard the conversation between him and his friend correctly, he told him to make me lose my balance and fall from the chair just because i'm too tall for him to defend. Cos its not counted if i fall from the chair after i catch the ball. Till now i'm still kinda shock la..
Then in another match i kanna "molested". Its not exactly the defender's fault but he's too rough. My teammate, jin loong saw it and shout at him. He say "Why you touch her breast!!! She's a girl lei!!!".They nearly fight because of this.He's so gentleman la!! Thx!! After this incident, the defender dont dare to jump anymore and they change the defender during the second half.
We won 2 matches and lose 1. There's more tomrrow!! Hwaiting~~!!

2008-01-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

Its been a very long time since i update. Been really busy with projects. Never even have enough time to sleep.Its a very BAD day for me today...forget to bring logbook to school so i have to rush home to take in order for us to do the scaling up of our product for tomorrow's sensory test. I manage to rush back home and back to school within one hour. Then we start our scaling up. When we are about to finish everything, we realised one of our sample is very watery and cant gel. Only till that point of time huang dan remember that she forgot to add oats!!!We did not have enough coconut milk so we cant repeat. And the worse thing is all the coconut milk from Prime Mart were already bought by us.Luckily in the end we manage to solve the problem.
Luckily my day turns better when i meet my FSM group. The 3 of us was joking around more than doing work la. But still manage to get the things done. Finish at around 8++ then have dinner with Chris.
Its such a long day la. I wish this could end sooonnn!!

2007-12-08T16:02:00.000+08:00

Photo spam...

My little "sis"

The distorted "Mickey Mouse"

Before baking

After baking

Our future potential butcher

Fast forward to the last few minutes and see what happen!

2007-12-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY INA!!!!

Gave Ina a small surprised just now. I specially headed to TM 30mins earlier to buy her fav, cheesecake. I bought an oreo cheesecake from cafe cartel (its suppose to taste oreoy but it turns out to be lemony cheesecake). Actually i intend to light the cake but cartel dont have candles!! The cake come with a box so i have to squish it into my small bag. And i also put her present into the cake box which causes a leather smell coming from the leather wristband! =P I lied that i will be late and let her buy the tix first so that i dont have to squish the box into my bag for too long. She suggest that we can go cafe cartel to eat a cake after our movie when we were having our dinner at ajisen..in my mind i was thinking "heehee i already bought u one" when i heard it. I took the cake out from my bag when we finish our meal..she was surprised i guess!?!

Enjoying her cakie

2007-12-02T17:51:00.001+08:00

Went hongkong cafe with weiqin,jiayi,beng,adrian and michael last night. Michael spotted me when i was waiting for weiqin to fetch me so i boarded jiayi's car instead of weiqin's. His eyes were really good man. At the very last minute we decided to catch a movie. Watch tattooist at AMK Hub.Reached home around 4am..had a great time with them. Its been a long time since i last met beng..i realised he slim down quite alot after going army.

2007-12-01T02:28:00.000+08:00

Went 85 with chris, zhao han and waner for dinner. Had quite alot of fun with them..chit chatting, gossiping etc. I wonder when have i started to be so close with them?! For the first time i got to know that there's guys whose ambition is to be a "househusband"!!

Catch a movie with my cousins and his gf just now. Watched hero. I don't know if its me who is too tired or the movie is too boring, i nearly fall asleep. There are parts that are funny but its not as nice as i thought it will be.

2007-11-24T00:14:00.000+08:00

Went ECP with wei qin and jiayi juz now. Wei qin came to fetch me..His driving skill quite steady. ..kinda envy those people that can drive BUT i like to wait for people to drive me around even more.Heehee. Finally i have a day to sit down and relax..chit chat..forget about projects..Shall have this kinda meet ups more. =) Been doing projects everyday. Just like yesterday stayed in school till ard 9 to do FSM..or stay up till 2am. Really can die arh. Ahh!!! Holiday please come faster!!!!

Somehow i feel that he changed. He's not as dominating as last time when i do FPQAP with him. Now we are more like frenz rather than just projectmate. Had quite alot of fun doing FSM with him. We chat more and crack lame jokes..etc. I'm kinda surprised with his action of feeding me the lava cake. Is like we are not close frenz or wad..Though i'm ok with guys feeding me food but for him i'm just kinda surprise. And one more thing..I just know that he can be so "GAY"! He likes to act coquettishly..is so sissy la! hahaha Now because of waner, my new scandal is him again!

2007-11-16T22:28:00.000+08:00

Its the last semester already yet is super duper stressful. After today's meeting with him, the whole group suddenly feel very very stress and demoralised. He mention that we are not discipline because we never write and let him sign the "meeting with soup" form then have to recall from the first meeting till now what we've done. Ok for this i know we are wrong. The next hour he say "poor girls arh, do so many things" then the next minute he gives us alot of task again. What's this man!!!!
Really have alot of task to be completed. Many assignments of other subjects due next week and we have to complete our MP logbook by next wednesday also. Ahh!!!!! When will this end!?!?!

2007-11-10T13:19:00.000+08:00

Was browsing through DBSK stuffs..saw this DBSK Paris photobook(SPECIAL limited edition). Is so tempting to buy BUT is way way way too EXPENSIVE. It cost $170 lor. Though it contains 3 photobooks and 1 DVD, must it be that expensive?!?! *faints*

Been a busy week for me...presentations, assignment deadline and blah blah blah. Gonna rot at home this 2 days to watch drama, read comics and of course complete my assignments.

Some olds pics..xuanz bday celebration @ Ms Clarity Cafe

2007-11-04T18:26:00.000+08:00

Havent been updating lately..been busy with projects everyday. A few days ago i got this sudden urge to have ear piercing..1 on the left and 2 on the right. BUT i scared that it will be very pain..since its already years ago when i have my first piercing and i cant remember how pain its is.Should i pierce??

2007-10-27T15:03:00.001+08:00

Its been a busy week for me though its the first week of school. We are being scheduled one and a half days per week for major project BUT we seems to be doing it everyday from morning till late afternoon. That idiot keep increasing the number of experiment we have to do in order to "fully utilised the whole piece of meat". He doesn't seems to see that we still have other subject's projects to do. We cant voice these out cos if any of us says it..that person sure will kanna from him. Arghhh!!

Till wednesday then i know that for Food service & managment(FSM) the groups will only have 4 memebers(manager, asst manager and cooks)..which means i'm gonna be the only girl in Chris(e "handsome" leader) group!?! I never thought that he will ask me to join his group. I thought he will ask yong ren as he's closer with him.I still duno wad's my position though. To certain extend its a good thing to be with him but its a bad thing too.

2007-10-22T17:01:00.000+08:00

Quarrel with my bro last night. He's very unhappy that we ask him to go my dad place everyday and now it's my turn to go down once a week. He keep banging this banging that when we told him. I really cannot bare with all the bangings he's doing so i went to ask him what's the thing that he's so unhappy about?!?! And i said out those things that I've kept to myself for very long. Cant help i cried again..my mum kept quiet but i know she's crying too. This time round i nearly fainted.
Have i done the wrong thing to ask him go my dad place just like what I've been doing for nearly 2 years?? I guess I'm really very wrong. I should have keep everything to myself and continue doing the same routine.
When my dad was in SGH, its me who go almost everyday. Its me again when he's in ang mo kio rehab centre.Now here, its also me. I'm not being calculative or what..In the first place, he's the one who said so confidently that he will go everyday for sure before my dad move to his current place. Then now, ask him go like it's gonna kill him. The number of times he had been going down for this 2 year plus..cant even compare to mine for one year.
I'm not a ROBOT..I'm a HUMAN. I will feel tired also. How i wish i could just sleep till everything i've loss has been replenish.

2007-10-17T20:46:00.000+08:00

Break down last night. Cried out really hard..till i had difficulty breathing. Dont intend to let my mummy know I'm crying but she walk into the room when i was covering my eyes with towel. It got worse when she sit beside me and pat my back. I just cant control myself..not only b'cos of what happen just now..think its also because i hold back for too long?! or maybe too stress up?!?!
This morning my eyes was like puffer fish..really dont wish to go out with it but no choice have to do MP. Think my groupmates notice it!?! Though i hope not!! Wasnt in the mood to do things but still have to do..no appetite to eat too..might be due to the super hot weather. My whole body feels very uncomfortable..having muscle ache now. Think i gonna have fever soon.

2007-10-10T14:25:00.000+08:00

Tommorrow will be the proposal interview. Hope it will be an easy one. From what i've heard, its very easy and fast. I just realise that my right leg is not only sunburn..its swollen too!!Burn till swollen..believe it?!?!

2007-10-09T22:55:00.000+08:00

Went sentosa for picnic with my TP cliques. The weather was damn hot..now my leg and face sunburn. Learnt "dai di" from beez for 2 rounds and played myself for the rest. Still dont really understand it. We played heart attack too. Enjoyed this relaxing day with them.

Hold me Please!!

Do Re Mi Fa

2007-10-05T02:35:00.000+08:00

Got to watch Resident evil:Extinction for FREE!! Thanks to my mum's colleague. She picked up a ticket for 2 at the AXS when she's paying her bill. The machine printed out the movie tix instead of her payment receipt. We wasnt sure if the tix is valid as IC or hp no is required when you book thru AXS..which mean the person could have tried to call GV to report and cancel it. In the end we still went and manage to get in. heehee Before my mum gave me the tix, i was thinking that the seats should be K05 & 06 when i was checking online. Surprisingly, i got it right!!hahaha When meeting ina on bus, she asked me to show her the tix. And she told me that she guessed that the seats will be K. Cool ya!?!?

It's time to change my background music again. This time round is an old song by H.O.T. Its from their 3rd album in 1999. Back then they haven't disband yet.They are my very first favourite artist. BUT they disbanded in 2001.

2007-10-04T22:47:00.000+08:00

Went for a run round the stadium with ina this morning. Run cum walk 6 rounds to cover 2.4km. We took ard 20mins or so to complete it. Its not easy since we've not been exercising for 3 years. Watched underdog after going home to take shower. Headed to TM after movie. I guess both of us are pretty beat by then but we can still shop for our stuffs. Bought one pair of socks and new tee.Had a short break at Ya-kun. I din get anth..juz sitted there to chit chat and see ina eat. Ina, thx for listening to my bragging. Felt much better. I always tend to keep everything to myself,a bad habit of mine, which cause me to get emo or frustrated very easily.

Picture spam....chinese garden

Wishing tree

My Fav!!!

Home sweet home...

2007-10-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

Met up with Ina first to collect my JaeJoong's designed tee at town before heading down to doby gaut to meet susu. She din know that Ina will be watching movie with us. So ina came out wih an idea on how to show up in front of susu. I'm bad at faking but still it worked out. Had carl's junior for dinner. As usual i cant finish it.
Intended to watch Underdog but didnt in the end cos of yahoo's movie showtimes. It was stated there that there' one at 7.40 but when we were queuing or tix e sales told us the last show is a 6. I was like awww...!! So our next choice is Balls of fury. Its a nice show..funny and GAY!

2007-09-22T23:49:00.000+08:00

Went chinese garden today and its quite fun. Feels like i'm back to my primary school days going for an excursion. haaha Just that now i'm a BIG child already. It's my first time there. Mountain tortoise rite?!?! i like the scenery.its beautiful. However, the outing is kinda short as there are alot of small kids so cant stay till very late. Missed the fireworks!! *sad* I wanna see the Japanese garden! Shall go there again some other time but the entrance fee is ex, $12. This time round we got it at $5 instead of $12. Good eh!?! hahaha Took quite a number of photos. Will upload some other time.

2007-09-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

Haven't been updating for some time. Been kinda moody for the last few days. For some reason, i cried alone for ard 2-3 times..a short one. Just cant control it. One way to cheer myself up is by listening to DongBang's song. Whenever i get to hear Jae's voice or watch their videos with his funny and cute actions, my mood tend to be better. And when i'm outside with my frenz, my mood also tend to be better.When i reach home, it changes. I'm kinda tired already..don't wish to think anymore. Today i'm better already..maybe is just mood swing for the last few days.

2007-09-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

Had lunch at Miss Clarity Cafe. The food was good with big potions and the price is quite cheap too. I had Garlic Crusted Dory. I think is nice with a little spiciness. Headed down to orchard to watch Evan Almighty. The movie was funny. Ina helped me to understand what the story is about before watching. Thanks =D I had a great time today though i totally lacked of sleep. Had only 2 hours of sleep but still can be so awake. So you can imagine how enjoy i am.

Got to know something new today. When you're having a conversation with someone and you yawn..what thing comes into your mind?!? Boredom? Tiredness? Nono! Ina told me that it can mean that you empathise..you put yourself into that person's shoe. Interesting ya?!?

Shall mention something about yesterday. Hurt my last finger when bringing in the laundry from outside. Got my finger trap in between the crack of the bamboo stick. Had a hard time pulling it out. Can imagine how clumsy i am!?!

My wound

Who's this monkey!?!

2007-09-07T23:50:00.000+08:00

Watched Ratatouille just now. It's a nice movie. This is the first and the last time i will feel that a rat is cute. haha Before that we had dinner at Aijisen. Had volcano ramen and fried tofu for sides. Shumei's "raining" power when eating spicy food is still as powerful as the past. She can even predict weather forecast. You know what i mean ya, shumei. hahah Though just a short meeting but i enjoyed myself.

Some old pics...After badminton

Random pics

2007-09-01T22:31:00.000+08:00

Went to gym with Ina. Today's is girls gym day for TP. Worked out for around one hour.Supper with wei qin, adrian, ina, michael and jia yi at ECP yesterday night. It was fun and the food were delicious. Ina and i waited for them there for nearly one hour!They reached around 11.20pm. If i knew they will be that late we wouldnt had reach so early. We eat and crap till around 2am. Had a good laugh. Take a short stroll before going back. Shall join them more often!

Had badminton session with shu mei today.Booked for one hour but we only got to play for around 35mins as i overslept. Had baked rice at pizza hut for lunch. Head to her house for a bath after that. And then to parkway parade. Enjoyed my day! =D

Orleans Delight

Competing to see whose eyes is bigger!!

2007-08-30T01:27:00.000+08:00

THE STORY OF A BOY

(credits baidu bar for original story & I like Jelly(DBSK Soompi forum) for translating)

Long time ago, somewhere in Korea, a 15 year old boy bid goodbye to the city that had raised him, he gathered up a few pieces of luggage, said goodbye to 8 sisters and 2 parents who loves him deeply, he got on the train to Seoul, his family cried at the sight of his back walking away, the boy heard his loved ones crying for him, but he was afraid to look back, because he knew if he looked back, he wouldn’t have the heart to leave, but he didn’t want to throw away his dream, plus he didn’t want his family to see his tears. Just like that, with a very thin jacket in a freezing winter, for the sake of his dream, the boy left his home town for the first time in 15 years, to a big city he’s only seen in his dreams.

Finally, the train has stopped, the boy got off of the train, as he looked at this strange yet fancy city and all its glory, busy streets, limelights, he’s never seen anything like this before. He felt his heart grow weak because it was so overwhelming. Really.. can he really find his place in a city like this? The boy hesitated, his faith was shaken.

But, the dream he has in his heart can’t die, if he just goes home like this, he’ll never forgive himself for being such a weak coward, so, without any help or anyone, the boy found himself an apartment the size of a tuna can.. and call it home.

SM Entertainment, the biggest music entertainment company held its second singing contest, the boy went, in the lobby, he saw so many other boys are that just like him, hoping to get picked through his contest so they can be on their way to a great singer, all the boys were well dressed, they were wearing the hippest clothes, with high-end mp3 players in their ears as they practice. The boy looked down on his plain grey tshirt and jeans, he felt like he has already lost half of the battle.

He was contestant number 12, he walked into the audition room, there sits 5 stone cold expressionless judges, he was a nervous, until a judge asked him to open his mouth and sing.

Just like that, his voice touched everyone in the room, that voice, was by the far the purest, the softest they’ve heard, when you listen to his voice, you can’t help but feel this sadness and tons of emotions, but even so, you want to continue to listen to his voice, forever and forever, just be loss in the sound of his voice. But still, his voice was too soft, too weak.

The reason the boy won the contest because he has a flawless face, perfect skin, long eyelashes, delicate features that are even prettier than a girl’s, big watery eyes, pouty lips, and that white as snow skin. They said his face was born to be in the entertainment business.

He got signed by SM, with a 7 year contract, two years of training, he has to pay for all of his music, dancing and other classes. The next five years he would actually become an entertainer, seeing himself that much closer to his dream, the boy signed the contract, knowning in the next two years, his life will be extremely hard, hard like he’s never experienced before, but he knows this is his dream, so he can not give up.

So he begun those two grueling years, he knew his family isn’t well off, so he’s never asked his parents for a penny, everyday he jumped in between 3 different jobs, when everyone else was still sleeping, the printer will drop off a stack of newspaper that are as heavy as he is, he would ride an old bike and deliver those newspapers door by door. In the afternoon he would jump from construction site to construction doing temporary work, that gorgeous face is being covered those pounds of cement and dirt, he had to suppress his beautiful voice because he wanted to be liked by his superior. After his music lessons early afternoon, in order to save a few dollars, he walks 3 hours to his waitressing job at a restaurant, he quietly does his job, quietly takes on everything a 15 year shouldn’t. quietly doing everything he can to get through these two rough years. All for the day he will be surrounded by bright lights.

The boy did everything he could, but he still couldn’t manage three meals a day, every time he gets his salary, the first he does is pays for his lessons, even if the left over isn’t nearly enough for him to eat or buy any clothes. Finally one day, the boy realized he didn’t have any money left for food, he had been starving for two days, his weak body shouldn’t even be walking, but with the pressure of he has to pay for his classes, he still went to work. That night, when he was cleaning a table at the restaurant, he saw a customer has left more than half bowl of his noodle soup, it was still hot, he couldn’t take the hunger anymore, his hands were shaking.. he picked up a spoon and started to eat the left over noodles.. huh. He wonders why it starts to taste so salty.. then he realized it was his tears.. has dropped down in the bowl w/o him realizing.

One the day, the boy got sick, he was running a high fever, he laid in his tiny little apartment for three straight days, thank god he already paid for his lessons, but he’s short 3 days worth of pay, so once again, the boy dragged his fragile body, walked three hours to his restaurant job.

On the way back, he saw a blood donating booth, his stomach growled at him, the boy once again did something he didn’t want to.. he walked inside.. after an hour, he came out with a few bills in his hand, dragged his lifeless body into a store and bought the cheapest pack of cracker there is.

Finally, he got through these two years, he was chosen to be in a group of five, the company have announced that this is going to be one of the best group of all times. Even though the five boys are very different, but the company believe that together, they will be perfect. The boys thought he was so lucky to be chosen in such a group, at the same time, being the oldest, he got four younger “brothers” who adores him.

When they put out their first EP, even though there are only two songs on there, they topped the charts in Korea, also broke the fact that EP doesn’t sell well in Korea, the boy finally got a taste of success, as he sees more and more fan letters everyday, he knew everything in the past two years was worth it

But nothing’s perfect, good times are always short, it’s cruel actually. The first time they held their fan meeting, the people that came were fans of other members, watching lines of fans lined up in front of other members, there’s not even a single soul in front of him self, he wanted to scream and cry, The crew members didn’t want to make things weird, so they dragged a few fans in front of the boy. The boy held his sadness, starting talk to the female fan girl. But the fan girl coldly threw him “ I was forced to stand in your line, I don’t even like you”.. his heart was shattered again. But he didn’t cry, he rather bit his lip and let it bleed, but he doesn’t want to cry in front of anyone. Esp himself. The boy didn’t know why the fan didn’t like him, but what he doesn’t know is that his fans were still waiting outside the building b/c the meeting room was full.. their hearts were shattering along with his.

Once he found out online that it’s not that others don’t like him nor he did anything wrong, but because he’s just too pretty.. even the girls are jealous.. reading this silly gibberish, the boy chuckled. He never gave up, everyday he puts on his sincere smiley face to public, hoping and praying that others will see him for who he really is, hear his voice. But the harder he try the more pressure he felt. Whenever he makes a mistake during performances, it makes him nervous, because he’s scared that others will dislike him even more b/c of it. So little by little. The boy stopped smiling in front of the camera, watching his every action and words.

But because of it, the fans were chatting he’s pretending to be too cool, so the company should consider switching him out.. he was seriously scared, he didn’t want leave this place that was practically his 2nd home, but he understand that he’s just a "body" that makes money for the company, if the consumers are tired of this body, then the company must switch the body out for new one.

He didn’t get switched, he found out that his fans roamed the streets in his honor for days, begging the company to keep him in the group. Also, the maknae of the group, changmin, despite what the manager forbids him to do, begged in front of the camera, that if the company takes the boy away, he will tear up his contract and go back to being a high school student.

The boy cried, he knows that everyone in this group has a passion for music, Changmin the youngest, just like him, has gone through hardship to get to where he is today. The boy cherished everything he has even more, he begins to practice harder and harder, to thank his fans, also he wanted to show his best to his fans that loves him. During concerts, the boy always looks around in the audience, the director said that looks funny when he sings, the boy said it’s better for the singer to stare at one particular spot when he sings, but he can’t do that, because he wants to see the face of every single fan out there, even if the picture captured of him was ugly, he doesn’t care.

Once during dance practice, the boy fell.. he thought it was normal to fall when dancing. But this time he couldn’t get back, his knees was hurting like crazy, he balled up and started shaking in the corner of the room, the leader, Yunho, w/o saying a word, carried the boy on his back and took him to the nearest hospital, at the split second that the emergency room door was closing, the boy saw four familiar figures on the other side of the door. Worrying for him, praying for him.

The doctor said his right knee is pretty much gone, he needs surgery asap and it’s a major surgery so he needs to rest for a long time post-op, but the boy refused, the 2nd day after his surgery, he arrived at the Seoul Olympic stadium with the rest of the members, like his schedule, he met with his fans, before the meeting, Yunho was by his side all the time, didn’t leave his side for even a second. During the fan meet, they asked what does Changmin want for new years, Changmin’s answer “ I wish for hyung to get better soon”

The boy hates crying, he looked down, tried his hardest not to let his tears fall, he finally looked at the fans, he saw them crying for him, his heart was breaking, he picked the microphone and said “ I’m not hurting at all, really, please don’t cry for me, let’s face each other with smiles, please?” this is the first the boy has lied to everyone, it was within 24 hours of his surgery, how can it not hurt? But he toughed it out, for the love he has for his fans.

He finally recovered, he celebrated with his friends, on the drive home, he was pulled over by the police for drinking and driving, Yunho came to pick him up at the police station w/o a word, but the boy knew he has disappointed Yunho and others.

The boy was kept in silence by the company for two weeks, he knows that this is actually the lightest punishment for his foolish actions, and he knew his member have begged the company many many times, so that he’s not going to get kicked out. Because of it. He insisted in the next fan meet, he will apologize to everyone. That was the first time the boy has shed tears in front of his fans, .. when his fans said that they forgive him and they still love him.

The boy started to get more and more popular, people started seeing him for more than just a gorgeous face, he’s a passionate musician with a beautiful voice and he’s a brave soul who isn’t afraid to face his mistakes. Three simple words “ we forgive you “ from the fans gave him all the faith he needed to carry on.

This boy, is Kim JaeJoong, a member of the hottest group in Korea. DBSK. The company gave him the stage of name of YoungWoong Hero JaeJoong. So whenever the boy wants to cry, he reminds himself he can’t.. because he’s Hero JaeJoong and a Hero doesn’t cry.. a hero will fight 'til the end and win the battle.

While reading it, i cried. Cant help it. He really went through alot of hardship to get to what he is now.I'm impressed by his perseverance to pursue his dream. Jaejoong oppa, Hwaiting!!!

2007-08-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

Watched The Secret today with Ina. It's just like what i've heard..really a very nice show. I love the piano battle and duet part. It's damn cool and amazing. I've downloaded this 2 songs to listen again.heehee Cried alittle for certain parts in the movie..might be due to the background music also.Heard from bg that there's a mistake in the movie. I guess i've found it. But i wont say it here. Wanna noe..watch the movie and check it out. =P You wont regret watching it.

2007-08-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

Celebrated yan fen's birthday juz now. Not really a big celebration..juz a small treat from mi, bg, xuan and yr. Had dinner at Hong Kong Kim Gary Restaurant. The food is quite nice. I like the Borsch soup and ice coffee.At first i still duno dat Bosco Wong is the spokesman for them. Till i saw the feedback form at the side thn i know it. Walked round vivo after dinner. Kinda tired now..shall sleep earlier todae.

Happy 19th BirdDay Fen Fen!!

2007-08-22T00:32:00.000+08:00

Had a great time with shu mei. Watched flashpoint. Din expect dat there's still so many ppl watching tis movie since its already the last day. Not much for storyline but the actions are cool..esp donnie yen. when he fight..woah cool man!On the bus ride home, we had alot to talk since we haven met for quite some time. Susu,thx for telling ya! =D

Susu came along wif mi to visit my dad yesterday.Its been years since she last saw him. Dat time he's still healthy. She sae my dad looks abit different now but yet duno where's the difference.haha mayb he smiles more now?! looks friendlier?!?

2007-08-19T12:29:00.000+08:00

Last night when laying on bed going to sleep, suddenly the incident that i forever wont want to remember..flashback in my mind. Oni a few ppl will noe wad incident i'm talking about. It cause my mood to go down down down. It's been nearly 2 years already and yet i still cant forget everything. I learnt that we will always remember the things that we wanna forget. Its hard to forget it and treat it as nothing has happened. Now i oni wish that it don appear in my mind so often.

2007-08-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

Still not feeling well after eating medicine for 3 days..my sore throat is better but running nose still jia lat. Finish watching hkdrama "Heart of Greed"..nice show but one part i don like is dat raymond lam died. I cried non-stop when e died..juz cant stop tearing. cry till my eyes swollen la.hahaa tink back still feel like crying. Bosco wong oso acted in the drama..love both of them!! Now i'm waiting for my mum's fren to rent another drama. tis drama oni gt raymond lam..bosco wong nt in tis drama. sadddd

2007-08-11T23:35:00.000+08:00

Went shopping wif ina todae. though i'm sick i still went cos i don wanna 放她飞机. its been a long time since i shop for so long hours. Had great lunch and dinner. lunch at raku ninja and suki sushi for dinner. Din get to buy anth..intend to buy watch but din see any dat i like.

Nice Hokkaido ice cream

Poking tea

Trying to SQUEEZE in!!

"Bird Shit"

2007-08-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

Some things happened. Last night my dad admit into hospital..stay till ard 3am thn go home.luckily is nt sth very serious. And now i'm sick..down with sore throat, fever and running nose. feel so uncomfortable for the whole day in hospital accompanying my dad. wait till 8++ thn go see doctor. feeling very sleepy now. shall go slp now. Till next time~~~

2007-08-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

Went orchard juz now. Tried BBQ chicken for dinner. Quite nice..shall go there to eat again!! BUT they cheat my feelings!! They said they will have 'O' and balloons MV playing on the screen in the shop but todae they DIDNT!!! arghhh
Went for the bursary presentation ceremony tis year. waste my time la..juz for the 5mins. Saw andrew there too.

Korean Charbroiled chicken

Jerk Chicken

2007-08-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

Went orchard wif waner. shop for few hours thn acc her go interview at samsung hub. BBQ chicken is open alr. shall find one day and go there eat!
Down wif running nose again. Shall go slp now.

Present for waner

2007-07-31T22:41:00.000+08:00

Had badminton session again! tis time i can feel the ache on my hand..tink b'cos more xiong tis time. but i enjoyed it. heehee last min decided to go orchard and ecp after i go home bath and ina collected her pay cos she don wanna go home yet..but in the end b'cos of her turtle boss we oni got to go ecp for dinner.

Yummie!!

Our rubbish

2007-07-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

Badminton session todae..Finally!!! Had a great time playing and sweating. i wan more!! Ina lets play every week!! hahah Been chionging HK drama tis few days...finally finished it. Nice show man!! Bosco wong so handsome can~~ woots! another handsome guy in my list. hahahah he sings well too!!

2007-07-20T16:20:00.000+08:00

Sprain my neck tis morning when i slp. luckily is getting better after my mum help mi massage.Meet wei qin and ina for lunch at century square foodcourt. cos he wanna try out the bake rice there. Ate Seafood bake rice..quite nice but alittle too salty for mi. On the way back to bedok, we met tis weird ger on bus. first all of the sudden she wave to wei qin and tok to him but e problem is he duno who she is. thn suddenly she shift place to sit wif someone. and after dat person beside her get down..she shift place again. thn again when the person get down..she shift again. we laugh out cos we really cant control it liao. She tok to herself..saying laugh wad laugh very funny meh(in chn)..i tink cos she saw wei qin laughing..her back facing mi so i don tink she saw mi laughing!?!?! =P nt we bad or wad la..but is really very weird.

Meet wei qin and ina for movie again in the evening.last min decide to watch Invisible Target.Wooo the show is nice!!!The actions are cooool~~There's a super funny part where the 3 handsome guys help each other rub oilment on their bruises which look so GAY. Enjoyed my day!

2007-07-18T16:06:00.000+08:00

Meet wei qin and adrian for lunch at LJS. Zhi hao joined us awhile later. as usual chit chat and tok lame things. Wei qin and adrian was kinda shock when they saw my new hairstyle. hahaha adrian sae i and his mum have the same hairstyle!! his mum punk ehh!!
Been researching for Food Safety project. those techniques so chiminology..don understand wad it toking abt. after mon and everything will be over!! except for the upcoming test 2.

2007-07-14T23:28:00.000+08:00

Been chionging report tis 2 weeks..hardly get enuff slp. Falling sick soon..no matter how much i slp, oso nt enuff. Watched Harry potter at Cathay @ AMK HUB with Ina and her frenz. due to some reasons, i gt to watch it free. Thx for e tix, yi jun! The show is quite a disappointment. No climax..and it juz end like dat.

2007-07-13T23:07:00.000+08:00

Chiong my report till 6am last night. finally finished it.slept for 4hrs oni. Intend to meet waner at 10 to edit report b4 handing in but cant get up on time cos b4 i went to slp i ate medicine for my running nose which cos drowsiness. i woke up at 9.50am!! sry ya waner!! finally handed in. still left food safety project and i will be free from report!!!
Meet wei qin and ina for lunch. Saw adrian at TM and he joined us too for lunch at yoshinoya thn he headed back to office. I notice we don talk as much as before. Am i over-sensitive!?!? I'm so tired yet i din wanna go home so early cos if i go home i sure fall alseep de. So went to cut hair with Ina.Gt sth new. Below long and top part can style.

2007-07-12T22:56:00.000+08:00

Went sch to chiong SIP report wif waner. Glad that i meet up wif her. 2 brain is always better thn 1. Half-way thru writing alr. Hwaiting!!! Had lunch wif raymond and desmond. "Enjoyed" myself..Dat waner keep saying mi and raymond tis and dat..scandalous thingy!hahaa B'cos of waner, now nt oni ms cheong abt mi and raymond, my mum and bro oso noe abt our "scandal".hahaha she's so innocent when we sae sth dirty. muz explain till very clear thn she understand.cant stop laughing throughout the whole lunch break.
Meet wei qin to go home together. Had dinner at Mac. Eat chit chat for ard 1hr thn go home chg and go back dad place. And now i'm back to chiong my report.

2007-07-10T22:35:00.000+08:00

Went sch again as Mdm Kalpana wanna treat us for helpin her out for the blood test. Din get to eat at top table due to our improper dress code. Nobody tell us that we need to wear shoes and long pants until the very last min thn we knew abt it which was too late alr. Mrs L and C looks kinda pissed off when they saw waner and mi wearing slippers. The details i wont elaborate. Both of us were so embarrassed when the lecturers are negotiating with the managers to let us in. The workers there all looked at us lor..is like we are being looked down.
Went Tamp with my mum to shop. Bought 2 perfume. i wanna buy bag and shoes! Saw one shoe from converse. i'm still considering whether to buy or nt.

Souvenirs from Aust

2007-07-07T22:19:00.000+08:00

For the first time in my life, i stepped into Esplanade. Watched performance by Dim Sum Dollies. Its abt singapore history so i have tis mind set dat its gonna be bored. but it turn out to be very funny. i enjoyed it. Ina, help mi thx ur fren for the free tix. The show worth the pricing of $40. Really glad that i gt a chance to watched it.
Todae the second thing i tried for the first time is to walked alone at city hall to find the bus stop to my dad place. I'm clever enuff to find it and din get lost. hahaah Dad's fren bought us donuts from MunchyDonut. I like the chocolate one. Its rich and nt too sweet. I wanna try the strawberry!! as he went there quite early so the other flavours still nt ready yet.

2007-07-06T22:01:00.000+08:00

Went back sch to find ms cheong. She treated us lunch at mensa. Thn alycia drove us to her hse take lappy and back to my place to chiong our report. Finally finished it. Went 85 with waner and raymond for dinner. Thx ya for the treat.

2007-07-05T19:51:00.000+08:00

Watched Transfomers wif Ina. Nice show!!!I love bumblebee and optimus prime. They are so cooool~~ The graphics are nice though some parts are kinda confusing..too many robots. Watch it and u wont regret!!
Have been slacking tis few days. I have report that need to be done yet i've nt start. I'm nt in the mood to do it. Arghhh!! Din go online for 3 days cos too lazy. ppl are searching for mi alr so here i am online to report to those finding mi.hahahah

2007-06-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

Finally SIP ended. Can relaxed for 2 months! Yeah!! Wake up at 10++..eat breakfast thn watch tv till 2++ and go back to sleep again. =P Went out wif my mum and "godma" in the evening. Dinner at sushi tei. We intend to treat her but in the end she treated us. We knew she sure wont let us pay cos of our situation. We ate ard 10 coloured plate, softshell crab, unagi kabayaki, chawanmushi some other things i cant rem...total i tink is 70++ nearly $80. Enjoyed myself..its been a long time since i go out wif her.
Oh ya yesterday when waner and i were abt to go home, we saw him walking out. Guess wad we did?!? Both of us turn rd and look at him thn turn back and haizzzz. =P who ask him to treat us so badly. duno whether he hear/saw it nt. Hmph!

Memories~~

My mummies~

2007-06-27T22:32:00.000+08:00

Met him on bus. As usual like nv see mi. When i get down of the bus he was standing there thn i was like awww how come stand there make his bag or sth. Thn walking up the stairs, i was behind him..he turn round and look at mi for a few secs. ^_^" Gave him a new nickname todae, "TiKo" cos he has tis pervert look when talking to the 4 new gers. =P We imagine that his head turn into a wolf head. hahaha
Watched Nancy Drew. It was nt bad perhaps is b'cos i didnt read the storybook b4. Next movie will be Transformers~!

2007-06-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

Went off early and meet up wif Ina to catch a movie. Watched surf up. The baby penguin so cute can!! I love them!!Anyone wanna get them for mi!?!?! =P

2007-06-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

Went out wif raymond, waner and alycia. Dinner at Swensen thn went clark quay walk walk thn walk to chinatown. Had a great time wif them. I enjoyed myself though is juz a simple outing. Raymond is nt as shy as i tht he will be..see his pattern i tht he will be pai seh to go out wif us. =P Took the same bus wif him home..along the way we chit chat..gt to noe abit more bout him..tok alittle bout lester and some other things.
One more week of SIP and it will be the end. Will only go back there in mid-sep for our MP. Gonna miss the days there.
Dad may be coming home next wed. Maybe for 1-2 days ba. Yeah!! but he better don nag nag nag when he comes back. hahah he always nag when he come back home thn either my mum or mi will scold him. heehee

2007-06-22T22:37:00.000+08:00

Natto came to AS4 to find us..suddenly pop up in front of us.Luckily all of us was doin sth.He always ask redundant Qn de lor. he asked if we will feel stress if he bring us to the meeting wif the director and the factory's boss and we sae yes. but he still insist of bringing us along. so ask for wad!?! BUT in e end we didnt go in for the meeting..we waste one and a half hours waiting for him to call us in for the meeting. WTH!!
Went off early again and go marine parade wif Ina. Acc her to collect her top and went MPH to choose a pen for my mum's manager. Chose a parker pen. All the pens is either hundred over dollars or too cheap for them to share.Looked for quite awhile thn finally ina saw one that is suitable and within our budget. Thn go walk walk and i bought some things from The Face shop.Wanted to the gel that can minimise pores but abit ex so din buy cos i using my dad's card to pay. Tell my dad bout it juz now..he sae juz buy mah. Argh!! shld hav buy it. now sale lor. i shld go get it soon!!! heehee
Went Sakae for dinner. We were like "hungry ghost" while waiting for the sushi we want. lol Both of us ate 14 coloured plates, 1 chawanmushi each and one miso ramen. Pro? hahaha

Finished

Guess how heavy it?!?!

Kiss~

2007-06-21T22:25:00.000+08:00

Badminton session again!! =D tis time yin xia played..watching at her playing pattern i duno wad to sae..shld i sae is funny? or cute? she either cant reach the shuttle or blur blur stand there or jump and cant land steadily on the grd. hahaha we laugh non-stop when she play..nt we bad or wad la..but is really kinda funny. =P

2007-06-20T23:03:00.000+08:00

Watched Fantastic 4 with Ina and her sis. The show is nt as bad as wad i've heard. I tink certain parts is very cool lor esp e part they combine their power on Torch...but there's some flaws. U will noe wad it is if u watch it. =P Torch is handsome can but he gt chest hair. *sad* wahahahahha
Finally gotten my DBSK Live concert DVD!! Yahoooooooooo~~~

2007-06-17T20:40:00.000+08:00

When you arrive at the station
You are no longer my girlfriend
Walking a bit slowly
You are trying to figure out what to say
It's okay to not talk till the end
I can tell when I see your face
The thing I have been waiting for is coming near
Oh everday laughing by my side
You far away I can no longer meet you from that day

LOVIN' YOU your hand I was holding
LOVIN' YOU is getting farther
LOVIN' YOU the warmth of your hand
LOVIN' YOU I remembered

My heart that hoped to protect you
What was it pushing on
Your heart is closing in
I couldn't even realize
Oh hard to say your smiling face more than anything else
So far away I wanted to make you smile once more

LOVIN' YOU your hand I was holding
LOVIN' YOU I looked at your fingers
LOVIN' YOU Only night but in the gentle breeze
LOVIN' YOU it was glowing

As if we can meet again tomorrow
I hope you keep looking back
Before what we saw together
Becomes a memory

LOVIN' YOU your hand I was holding
LOVIN' YOU is getting farther
LOVIN' YOU only you
LOVIN' YOU I wanted
LOVIN' YOU that smiling face
LOVIN' YOU I saw a dream
LOVIN' YOU Only night but in the gentle breeze
LOVIN' YOU it was glowing
LOVIN' YOU I saw a dream

2007-06-16T23:09:00.000+08:00

Went to wan er's workplace to giv her a surprise. It's successful but she alr had a date wif her colleagues. So for her "happiness" mi and alycia sacrifice.=P Asked raymond and desmond out but they cant so in e end still we 2 go dating oni. Eat at mos and from compass point all e way come back to bedok for movie cos we don wanna go home yet. Watched Ocean Thirteen. Quite a nice show. At the beginning i cant no ball..until rd half way thn i understand.

Overly dressed singer(Ge Tai outside NTUC)

2007-06-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

Today's another slacking day. We even have time to have 1hr badminton session during office hour. =P It's been a long time since i sweat so much. Shiok!! Took the same bus wif him again.he sit wif another AS lecturer juz in front of mi..i guess he don dare to sit beside mi!?! hahaha Thn e both of em are like so weird lor..in bus like stranger..nv tok a single word. After they get down, thn talk. Weirdo!!

14 pieces of heartshape tissue found in our locker

"幸福的男人"

Budz

粗鲁的 Ms Ong

Badminton session~

Our "sleeping beauty"

2007-06-12T19:52:00.000+08:00

Todae meet up wif Ina for breakfast. It's been some time since i go Mac for breakfast. I had a hard time waking up at 6..i drag till 6.20 thn wake up. Took the same bus wif him to work.I smiled to him to 打招呼..he oso smiled. At first i tht he will treat mi as stranger. =P As usual he walked very fast..i was way behind him. I tht he went in first but he gt stuck outside searching for his pass to scan. He opened the door for mi. Oh ya he alr giv mi tis impression of him as a tortoise thn todae he carry a backpack which makes mi tink dat he really looks like a tortoise =X

2007-06-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

Tired day..no matter how much i sleep, i'm still very tired. Tink my machine overwork alr..need very long time to recover. As usual laugh for almost the whole day..That processor ong keep saying mi and raymond gt one leg.hahahahaha juz b'cos he talk to mi i talk to him?!?!
Todae he look like a walking zombie..suan him, he oso wont suan back. So tired?!?!Catch chicken over the weekends?!!hahaha Juz b'cos he had a camp on fri to sae and slp at 4 am on fri, he become like dat?? so weak ar!?! :X

"Pro" for tieing hair

Waiting for who?!? Mr D?R?H?haha

2007-06-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

Had a meeting wif natto tis morning. After the meeting, our mood totally went down down down. It's always like tis. We happy happy go, sian sian return. I'm currently in dilemma..thinking whether to cont' wif him for MP not?!? For some reason i duno wanna cont' but still for some reason i wanna cont!!I don wish to elaborate here..if anybody wanna ask why u can ask but need to see whether i wanna tell u nt ba. =P My frenz are rushing moi for an ans alr..How?How?
Watched Shrek 3 wif ina and shu mei. The show was nice. After e show, acc shu shu go hawker centre eat. Chit chat till ard 11 thn reach home.

2007-06-07T23:42:00.000+08:00

First half of the day very busy..Second half again is slacking. Go com lab "tabulate results" for rd 2 hrs. It seems like we gt tonnes of result that we need to tabulate. hahahaha Yesterday natto came to find us after we left..so suay..but luckily he nv sae anth. Two 12 years old kid play with the ice-making machine at de-con room juz now. Will show the pics below. =P

Ina visited my dad together wif mi todae. Thx my dear for accing mi!!Showed her ard the kampong-like hse..she's amazed to see a big durian tree!?! haha Ina, will call u to eat the durians when it drop!!

Trying to catch the "sai"

Finished product!

2007-06-06T20:14:00.000+08:00

Today it's another slacking day for us. Shocked when i see Alycia's new hairstyle. Its nice but i prefer her previous hairstyle. Tis look wild and mature.
He wore specs today..didn't know that he wears specs. I think he looks better with the specs..cuter =P

It's "showtime"!!

Trying to act hardworking

Spot the 2 Lesbian!?!?

Promoting her new hairstyle!?

Act cool but not cool

Acting cute again. haizz

Do-Re-Mi

Zi-highing

Emo-ing

Kuku face and good budz

Emo-ing

Why u cover my face!!!

Act guai

Went for a haircut with auntie ong. Sort of a new hairstyle. Change abit oni. Old hairstyle or tis nicer??

2007-06-05T18:19:00.001+08:00

We never fail to laugh. Yesterday was like that, today also..Almost everyday is like that.Is juz all b'cos of one person,Processor ong wan er aka ben niao. She's our entertainer!! Entertaining us by her actions, language and jokes.. esp her chinese..really tok-kong. U can always hear words form by herself. Let moi give u ppl a example, ppl sae go sai ri guang yu..she sae sai mu yu lu! Tok-kong rite!?! There's alot more but i'm lazy to sae it here.
Took some funny pics of her juz now buti'm told that i'm nt allowed to post. However, i really wished to post. Ms ong, can i post?
Let's talk about what happened yesterday. The 3 of us love singapore too much that we sing national day songs. We were singing very loudly "one ppl one nation one spore".. Lester walk pass the decon room and look inside. We quickly stopped and laugh out loud..omgosh so pai seh. We were laughing so loud that he can hear it and he tell raymond bout it. I tink he may be thinking that we 3 are crazy! lol

2007-06-04T15:04:00.001+08:00

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